I don't know what I'm expecting from writing this. its not like anyone else can know what he is thinking. I've been with my partner for 7 years. We have our ups and downs like everyone else. He has caused me a lot of heartache through the years but I love him so have stayed.
Two days ago we had an argument over his wages. He went and lost it all in the bookies and while we was arguing I said "I don't think you love me anymore" and he said "I don't know" I felt sick like I had been punched and he said he wasn't in love with me anymore and hadn't been for a long time. I asked about my birthday and why he was still sleeping with me and he said " I tried to love you" I begged him to stay and he said no. He told our children he was leaving and told his famil and packed his bags. I asked him again can we try and work on it and he said no. So I said ok and as much as it hurt me asked him to leave and I will get his stuff sorted for him. He left with his friend, he came vack 20 minutes later and said he spoke I his friend who has also thought this with hos girlfriend and it comes down to money and self worth. That he loves me always has and always will and he just wanted me to leave because he messed up.
How can you go back from that. He hurt me so much. For two hours he told me he did try and he was sorry he didn't feel it. I look at him and feel sick I look at him and wonder is he just trying again. When will he leave the next time. I really dont know what to do. If you love someone you wouldn't do that to them ? Surely