I need some support and suggestions regarding my last post.

[Janekai88]

Regarding my last post 'could you trust again' I'm very lost and confused as most people have said I need to leave. My husband this morning said he thought we were coming on leaps and bounds and I just felt crushed. After his looking at she male escorts, ridiculous amounts of she male porn and slapping me across the face I can't seem to move on and he views this as my problem. I'm very very down borderline depressed and he blames pnd. Anytime I try to talk he storms off, ignores me or says we have been through this move on. He's a very angry man gets frustrated and annoyed easily and I must admit I get rather annoyed easily now but I keep it all in. He started with me yesterday because my ex text asking how our son was as I have him for a few weeks he said I need to stop texting him? I don't ever text him unless I'm picking our dc up just to ask what time I never really speak to him either as we don't really get on. I think this is ridiculous as he follows his exes on Twitter and Facebook which I wouldn't ever want to do in my life! I just don't understand why every little thing is my problem? And he won't even listen to me? we went out last week with the kids I came back from the toilet with the older ones and he was staring at this women even she looked uncomfortable! I feel like the ugliest horriblest person in the whole world.

it is the cycle of abuse. He should be nice all of the time, not just most of it. And he has broken your family by being an abuser. Why are you blaming yourself.

I think you should call Women's Aid and do the Freedom Programme too.

This is the man you married. Before that, he didn't show you who he really is as you wouldn't have wanted him. Now is the time for you to make some decisions, as he won't change and is, in fact, more likely to escalate his abuse towards you. You don't need his permission to end the marriage either. Make the first step a call or email to Women's Aid. They can help you. One slap is one slap too many.

Its just strange, when he's nice its great but I look at him and just think how can you be so seedy and disgusting? How can I not be enough? I have literally given him every thing this has broken me.

You can't make him into a person he is not.

The person he is, is someone you wouldn't have wanted if he really let you see the real him at the time.

The real him is the man who looks at she-males online. He wants to have sex with men but needs them to look like women, so he doesn't have to admit to himself that he's gay. You know his dirty little secret and that's what he's punishing you for. And will continue to keep punishing you as long as you are in his presence.

The longer you stay the more he will destroy your sense of self-worth. There is no happy future for you or your children with him.

Make plans to leave and see a much happier future for you and your children on the horizon. Being alone and bringing your kids up by yourself would be better. A million times better than this.

He's a man with problems and you can't fix him. Meanwhile he's doing terrible damage.

He has never told me anything about his past exes either which I was thinking about today, I wonder whether he's been like this with any of them. I used to blame his short temper on long hours sleepless nights. I don't understand how it's got like this.

You have to do the Freedom Programme. You don't have to leave to do it. Worth looking into? You seem to have such low expectations of what a relationship is.

What is it?

Freedom Programme

You can do it online but I've heard from people that groups are much more empowering as you are sharing and validating your experience with others who have been in abusive relationships.

Oh I'll have a look thank you