First of all apologies if this isn't the most eloquent post, I haven't slept. I will try to keep this short as possible. My boyfriend of two years has out of the blue pushed me away. He's got a history of depression and low self esteem and has had counselling for this before but not for a while. We don't live together but he was staying at mine several nights a week. We had been talking at the weekend about possibly living together and I said I don't think we are quite ready yet. I don't know if it's that that triggered it but he's suddenly pushed me away, taken his stuff and gone back to his saying he doesn't deserve me, he can't be the man I need, I deserve better, that my dc come first and he doesn't want this around them. It's so sudden. Only a couple of weeks ago we had a lovely two week holiday abroad just the two of us which was amazing. We were so happy. I spoke to him on the phone last night and when I asked if there was any chance for us he said he didn't know. He said he has booked a doctors appt for Thursday afternoon. Normally when we are apart we are in touch all the time but yesterday I had nothing.
To say I am devastated is an understatement, we had been planning our future together, always very tactile and loving. I haven't slept for two days for crying and trying to work this out. He has assured me there is no one else and that there's nothing else he hasn't told me, and I believe him.
How long am I supposed to wait while he works out for certain one way or the other what he wants to do? I love him and want to support him, I thought it's what partners do. This is killing me.