Hey everyone, I'm 18. I know this website is kind of mom's website. I'm not a mom but I think people in here give the best support...
2 days ago my friend matchmaked me with her boyfriend's friend so it was kind of a double date but it was nothing romantic, more like sexual. I had no experience of kissing or having sex. We met at the boyfriend's friend's place late at night. After a little bit of chit chat my friend and her boyfriend seperated to another room so we were alone. We started to kiss and did hell of a foreplay. I insisted to not to have sex since I didn't felt ready. But I also wanted to experince many things since I'm going off to college. It was nice and he REALLY enjoyed everything but in the morning he was real distant and cold which annoyed me.
Today my friend's boyfriend wanted to have a double date again but the guy I spent time with wanted another girl.
I feel rejected and humiliated. Can't stop thinking what did I do wrong. Can't stop thinking about that night either. I was wanting it again and BOOM I get this news. I feel really insecure now.
Is this feeling going to fade? I'm afraid to attempt to have a relationship again with someone new since I kinda lost my self esteem.