Or were there still some doubts?
I am feeling very confused, not least over having DS together and the future WRT him. We have had a difficult year with failed fertility treatment and an ectopic pregnancy and have busy lives which can be stressful with extended family issues. I don't know how much of this is to 'blame' or if it's just highlighting that we just aren't right for each other any more. We have always argued but I'm at a point where I just don't want to do that and feel like we are not on the same page about a lot of things.
Things have felt strained and distant since the failed treatment a few weeks ago - during treatment itself things were fine but I don't know if we were both just focussing on that. ATM all I can see is his faults and how difficult he can be about things that don't need to be an issue... his negativity and attitude at times are awful. BUT I have felt this way before then we have got through it and I've been shocked that I contemplated ending it because of all the good stuff there is about us and our relationship. He doesn't treat ME badly - he is very loyal and loving and an amazing dad; but right now I feel so unhappy, yet the thought of ending our marriage fills me with dread.
I don't want to bang on too much and send you all to sleep but happy to give further detail - any thoughts or experiences appreciated on this or knowing it was 'the end' appreciated.