Hi I would like some advice please.
So let's start sorry if it's long.
My partner (P) has a habit of going out and staying out for hours on end or sometimes not even showing up until the next morning. He'll say I'm nipping to the shop, gym etc.
This has really come to a head over the last 8 or so month. I had a baby 4 month ago and he done this a lot while I was pregnant, he done it the night before I was due to be induced bearing in mind when I try to ring he doesn't answer his phone.
So I've tried to break off the relationship many times because he's really wore me down and I'm sick of it. He's also been quite protective of his phone recently so I ceased my chance on Thursday when he left his phone in the house. I looked on the his internet search history and found porn websites ( I'm not really bothered about that) but there was a website called 18 and abused, fuckbook and a London escort agency ( we don't live in London). When I confronted him he said he went on pornhub and all these websites were just pop ups and he never clicked on them. So I was inclined to believe him.
So he stays out again yesterday until 2.45 this morning, when he gets up i tell him I want him to leave I'm sick of him, it's a case of out of sight out of mind with him. He then starts banging about upstairs and breaks a child's plastic chair saying he feels like knocking my teeth out and it's all my fault and he feels like he's in an abusive relationship because I say that I want him gone and me and the kids will be better without him ( he calls this me spouting my vile) and I said I don't love him anymore.
I feel so stupid reading this back please put things into perspective for me am I really abusive to him or am I extremely naive to believe what he said about those websites.
P.s. He can be a fabulous partner and father I'm just not prepared to put up with his behaviour.