My "relationship" has been over for a long time. Long story - short version was I was "lied to" by a MM who told me he was separated. Stayed at his house. Met his friends etc. Turns out he was "pseudo-separated" and they reconciled. When I discovered I ended it cold hard immediately. Was the hardest thing I've ever done as I had seriously fallen hard.
I've been no contact with him for approaching a year - our no contact annivesary is coming up. I still love him and miss him; I'm probably a bit fantasy obsessed about what might have been. I've done a bit of dating but not met anyone I've fallen for or even really like. I still think about him every day but most of the time, I'm OK. In that time, he's tried repeatedly to get me to respond to him - texts, emails, calls but over time they wained - to once every month to couple of months or so.
Today I had a call from a number I didn't recognise but the last 3 digits matched his (I don't have his number anymore but I remembered the last digits). I didn't answer and person left a message - turns out was a work client and not him.
It's thrown me into a tail spin and I've thought about him all day. No idea why this triggered me so badly but have a massive urge to call him or see him. Keep thinking of his voice, smile, eyes, touch etc. I'm not going to as I'd rather walk over hot coals - but badly want to understand why this one call should have had such a deep effect. I want to move on with my life and thought I was slowly progressing but this today makes me feel I'm stuck in a mire. I feel like I've travelled backwards a hundred steps.
Why would this be? Is there anything I can do? Why would this have triggered me emotionally so strongly?