Rant

[Joysmum]

I had my first counselling session today and my DH forgot about it.

I can't imagine forgetting anything that important for him and remembered he had his massage today. I'm so hurt by this.

I'm wide awake, my brain is turning over at a million miles an hour as I've had to talk about it all out loud. DH is snoring very loudly so I've gone into the spare room.

I've had a number of podcasts on and am on the Internet too as I cant deal with silence and inactivity.

I've got weekly sessions and have been told once I've got to a stage with this I can start additional specialised help for my binge eating disorder.

It's hard knowing I will need to shed my security blanket and actually challenge and change my behaviour. I want to run away but things can't continue as they have been.

Hi op. Just to let you know that you are not alone with the awake and racing mind.

I would be very hurt too if my dp forgot something as vital as that Have you told him how hurt you are? Don't keep it in and let resentment fester. I hope this is a one off lapse and he's usually a kind and considerate sort

Good luck with the counselling. I hope innings great positive changes in your life

Thank you.

I wasn't expecting any one else to be up so I really appreciate you taking the time to post.

He's a great bloke but tbh he's rubbish at remembeting things. I'd normally put anything on Outlook but didn't share to him this time but I've been on edge all week and when he commented, I did say I was anxious because of my first session on Friday so he knew, and knew how much it was affecting me.

Tonight he wanted to take me out but I'm so tired and said I just wanted to hibernate and he was disappointed because he wanted to do something for me, rather than understanding that I need to cope differently.

Made me realise how much I adapt to him but he's not sensitive enough to do the same.

He knows this is a regular Friday thing and won't forget again. He's waiting for his Cruis appointment go come through and I'd never forget his first appointment.

I just find it hard that this is even possible

Hiya joysmum Sorry that he's an eejit and you're not sleeping. I'm awake as DGD is due a feed soon (love baby sitting) so have got the kettle on. This is for you Would like to give you but maybe not tonight as I tend to binge eat too. Good luck and God bless.

Morning Joysmum. I often notice your posts on threads and the good advice you give to others. Just wanted to say I recognise your feeling of disbelief that somebody close to you can forget something so important to you. When you're the kind of person who keeps the other on their radar, so to speak, it's hard to imagine being forgotten about. Hopefully it's just a one-off, albeit a biggie !

Hope the counselling brings you what you need.

Thanks everyone. I'm awake again normal time and better able to concentrate today.

Can't believe how tired and wrung out I felf from yesterday's sppointment. I'm hoping the rest from now on get easier.