Please help me, I feel like I have nothing in my life and can't cope, I just want to be happy and I don't know how

[brokenfresa]

Please help me. I don't know how to cope with life anymore and I feel so lost and broken and scared.

My DP works away and recently we had a big argument where he said 'for the first time ever he wants to end it.' We talked and then he said he wanted to give it another go. He's been positive since then and given no signs of not wanting to carry on.

But I am a mess, and not just because of this (I don't think). I am constantly worried that he wants to end it now, because of what he said. I have told him I feel this way and he said that he is sure he wants to work on getting us back to how we used to be. Each time I panic about us, however, that obviously makes it all worse.

I'm 28 in Tuesday and I am panicking about this, too. I feel like life is so empty. I have no self-esteem, which probably contributes to my fears with the situation with DP, and I hate my life. Day to day my DP isn't around, and I find this hard, (particularly at weeknds when he is on duty). I feel like I have nothing to life for and I just get in every night and cry.

To the outside world I have a good life. I'm in a good job but I am struggling. I come home every night and barely make it to the front door without crying my eyes out.

Everyday is a struggle. I don't want to be 28 and feel like my life is over, but I do. I feel like I have missed the best years of my life, and looking back I just concentrated on exams etc and lost touch with actually enjoying life and having fun.

What do people even do to have fun? I feel sick and feel like I can't cope with this any longer, I don't know what to do :(

You need to see your doctor OP, this sounds like depression to me. You are 28...a baby!! Please make an appointment tomorrow

Agree - see a nice doctor.Don't be hard on yourself, 28 is a difficult age - I felt quite lost then too as did many of my friends. Be really kind to yourself and pamper yourself - act as your own best friend to do little things that improve your life a bit. Most importantly get some help.

Thank you for the replies.

I just don't know how this happened. My life is fine and I'm no different to anyone else...I know this, yet I feel everyday as if I am unable to cope and I just don't know why.

I feel constantly on the edge of a breakdown or something, I can't explain it. I agree that maybe I have depression but I think my mood is associated a lot with how anxious I feel everyday... I just can't imagine this changing by going to the doctors because they can't fix my life..a life that has nothing wrong.

Why can't I be happy and feel content? I also have fears of dying suddenly in my sleep and alone, and this is the newset thing that has staretd happening.

Please see a GP. Anxiety can be a symptom of depression. Also, a GP can prescribe anti-anxiety meds and/or some CBT to help you adopt different patterns of thinking if you are not depressed but anxious.

Thank you.

What do you to be happy? And what do you do if you start feeling low?

I would agree with others who have suggested seeing your doctor. Anxiety can be absolutely awful and you definitely need help to deal with it.

Do you have friends who you could see at the weekend when your partner is working? Maybe look into joining clubs/ groups to expand your social group and give you interests to focus on. Are you in the UK?

Please see your GP. CBT really helped me become aware of and then address the negative cycle of thoughts I was having.

I see my friends and have a moan to them if I feel low. I make time for the things I enjoy (sewing, crocheting, baking, reading), and I try and do new things too.