Ok so long back story coming up.
I was in a 3 year relationship with a man I loved very much. We didn't live together because of DSs needs but saw each other a lot. DS is my child, not his, and has severe SN and disabilities. DS loves DP with all his heart.
So about a year ago I found out through an anonymous message on Facebook, with screen shot, that he was cheating on me and trying it on with a lot of women. My reaction to this was to delete Facebook and not even confront him. I admit a massive part of this decision was that my mum dragged us from pillar to post after various men while growing up and I promised never to do that to my beautiful DS, so I ignored it.
We carried on and became even closer and started talking about trying to work out a way we could move in together.
Then, at the end of January/ early February I had a miscarriage, it was a particularly horrible one and I was supposed to stay in hospital, but came home because I knew it would upset DS otherwise.
DP was wonderful at this time, did all the school runs and cooking etc.
However, after that he became really distant. For example, there were 2 occasions since that DS has been away with his dad for the weekend. Which rarely happens, we rarely get the house to himself, usually he has to work but comes back to mine after and it's lovely. These times he just said he was going home and was tired.
The job he works he has to work nights, and is often walking home through a particularly rough area at 3-4 am, so he always texts me to say he's home safe. Recently he just stopped doing that at all.
As well, he has been doing things like staying at work alone till 7am putting all his money in the bandit.
Then there's the way he's acted with DS, he's been snappy with him, when he has actually been around, and and the few occasions where he's had a medical emergency he hasn't even asked how he is.
Basically it feels like he's pushing me away, although when I ask him about it, he says he isn't and I'm just paranoid and grumpy all the time.
Anyway things came to a head Saturday night. He didn't text to say he's got home again and just ignored something I asked him (I don't expect him to text while at work but he's always awake for 3-4 hours after he gets home to wind down)
The next morning he text me but I was out with DS and didn't read it, so 2 hours later when I was home I got a really nasty message off him basically saying I was always in a mood with him and I could just fuck off.
So, I thought about it, and just said "fine, I will. You've got what you wanted" since then I've had nothing. Absolutely nothing at all. So it obviously is what he wants isn't it? I just need to try and get over this don't I?