I used to live with my DP and he moved out recently for work-related reasons (to move to closer to his new job).
In the past 6 months, he has:
- told me he wanted to buy a home together, looked round places together and then I've found messages to one of his family members detailing information about a viewing he had for a place to buy alone.
- has consistently messaged another girl who used to be friends with us both but we lost contact when she broke up with her partner. There is nothing going on between them but I told him it made me uncomfortable that he spoke in detail to her about any argument we ever had etc.
- 'forgets' things.. forgot my recent mature student final exam, forgot a scan I had to have, forgot to tell me that he woulndt be able to visit me on friday on thursday night, thus leaving my friday night without any plans
- doesn't speak to me when he is out with friends
- lied about his income and about a 2k bonus
- gets angry when he drinks...at new year he grabbed my mobile phone and took it into the men's toilets, (I followed him in as was drunk) and he threw my phone under the cubicle and told me to fuck off... he apologised and blamed it on the drink.
- I told him I wanted to consider moving to where he was based, to which he said 'why would you do that for me, I don't want that pressure' (though he claims to want to move back in when his contract terminates at his current job)
- whenever I tell him I am unhappy, he gives the usual talk about how much he loves me and wants me etc, but it never feels like he actually is interested in why I am feeling so sad.
AIBU in feeling so shitty? And if so, why does my life feel terrifying a the thought of being apart from him?
please help :(