I have posted 2 threads previously. Cut a long story short, I basically cheated on my partner years ago (never more than a kiss) but with someone from work. Stopped speaking to the person and didnt tell my partner until 2 years later whilst away on holiday.
It may sound strange but I was/am fine plodding away in normal busy everyday life with working/my child etc but the thoughts of 'romantic meals, nights away & especially holidays scare me'. Even though I have nothing to hide etc, I still panic at the thought. He recently suprised me with anight away (told me the day before) & i instantly panicked/cried. Ridiculous I know. Ive tried councelling, Im on citrapram 40mg & I am currently having hypnotherapy, I am wondering if anyone thinks I have just put up a wall about these things becuae I didnt enjoy them for so long before I told him & when I did it was because we we were away?
It may sound daft to people but it effects me & my family massively & I feel like I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes.