Ups and downs with DH, trust and communication issues...
I look at whatever DH has told me about what his arrangement was in the end for spending time with his children at the weekend and I have no idea whether to believe him or not. Then I look at all the stuff that he does every day, how excited he is about the things that we are working on / planning together and how he was sharing all of that with his DC when they were here and it makes me question myself. Surely, somebody who consistently shows that much love, affection and dedication would not lie to you or throw what you have out of the window, or would the? What about the type of person who thinks that it's 'ok' as long as they can get away with it?
He's given me reasons to not trust him before and it hasn't always been perfect. He's a last minute type of person and often forgets arrangements which on occasions made me think that he was purposedly leaving it to the last minute to sort of 'drop the bombshell' and then disappear. He's made a point of changing that and being more transparent about things, but it doesn't come naturally and it hasn't been easy.
Everything was fine until DS asked me about the weekend, and my explanation was followed by "And you believed him?". I am trying to take it with a pinch of salt as DS is likely to feel protective towards 'good old mum' but also because there's a lot of tension between the two of them at the moment - two strong alpha males under the same roof and DS bang in the middle of his teens.