I'Ve just told my abusive husband that we are no longer together.
This has been a long journey. And it is thanks to mumsnet that i was able to see that his behaviour was abusive. I have been reading the threads on here for over a year. I recognised many of the things other wives and partners talked about in their posts on their abusive partners.
I am devastated. But I am free. I have nothing, but I will rebuild my life. Perhaps I won't manage. Perhaps life won't turn out well for me. But I am free,
He threatened violence.
He smashed our house up. He blamed me for provoking him.
He gaslighted constantly. He called me needy. Insulted me and told me I was mad and imagining it. I am no longer sure of who I am because of this. He said my genitla stank. But I know I am beautiful and many men would desire me.
He alienated me from my friends and family. I almost have no one left.
He criticised my appearance. But I know I am beautiful. I will learn to live myself again.
He cheated on me.
He lied.
He used me for money.
He almost bankrupted me.
He was constantly angry.
It took me years to get myself out of this. I come from an abusive childhood. I had bad boundaris. Life has given me an unlucky path. I clung onto him because I thought it was all I deserved. Because I thought this is as good as life gets.
But I am free. And I wonder where life will take me. I want a family. That is what I want. A happy one. I'm going to go and find it. Or let it find me. Thank God I have a future without him in it.
Thank you mumsnet 