Posted on here a couple of times through different threads. To recap: got myself embroiled in an emotional affair, since wound down but I've started counselling for various this.
Confided in counsellor last week that I was abused by my brother from 4-12 (I think). Also stupidly told a friend/colleague when drunk and emotional. First people I've told ever and what felt like a relief is now making me feel shit.
Had a session with counsellor last night and feeling very low today. We spoke about the ea, why I'd got in to it and also my marriage. Which is starting to feel like a slight fraud - I've been playing the role of submissive wife for years now but as with hiding abuse, mask feels like it's slipping.
Sorry, not making much sense but feeling shit and need an outlet before I burst in to tears at work. 