Guilt & Anxiety Has Stopped Me From Holidays & Nights Away!!

[tasha24x]

Over 2 year ago I cheated on my partner , last year whilst away on holidag I told him the truth (worst timing ever) He has since forgiven me and in all fairness been amazing. However I am fine with everyday life, normal routine the odd night out down our local but I cant bare the thought of another holiday. My partner wanted to treat us to a night away the other day but I felt so anxious about it we couldnt go. I have tried councelling which has helped a bit but was thinking about hypnotherapy to help me get over this fear? It is effecting me mentally & when I let him down then I end up feeling down & depressed for ruining a nice thing, yet again!!

I think you need to ask yourself why you had the affair and what is causing your anxiety. It sounds like you might have some unresolved issues that you haven't addressed, in which case I think you might benefit from counselling.

I am currently in the process of having councelling which has helped a little but still the thought of holidays or being out of my comfort zone scare me. I was thinking of maybe having hynotherapy?

What do you think will happen on holiday? What scares you?

Are you scared you can't control yourself?

I know im scared but I couldnt tell you of what exactly. I find it very hard to relax as I tend to keep busy to sometimes distract myself but I can relax in my own home etc. I think there will always be tiny little things he may not know and need to know but I know ill go away, build it into something massive & worry etc non stop. Before we went away on holiday last October I plodded along fine but the morning of the holiday came & I cried & cried not wanting to go! I sound barmy I know!!