Broke up with partner of nearly 6 years about 6 weeks ago. Had been coming for a bit, so not a complete shock but I had really thought that we'd be able to work through the bad patch so left feeling hurt and confused and pretty devastated by the break up. I can rationalise why it happened and the fact it was probably "for the best" but honestly it's not what I wanted and I wish that he'd felt the same.
We were living together so I moved out and back to my mums for now as there is a bit of a situation with the rental agreement and I'm not in a financial position to pay London rent on two places at the same time.
Was feeling fairly positive (or telling myself I was) about a new phase/opportunities last week but this weekend and particularly tonight I just miss him so so much. I think this is compounded by being back at home for the first time since I left for uni and the connotations of that, and the fact we had a really tight group of mutual friends who all moved to London after uni and I'm struggling to feel like I have a place anymore. They're my best mates and have been so supportive but I just don't feel comfortable or myself when I'm with them but I worry if stop seeing them - I'll have nobody left.
Basically sitting in my childhood bedroom bawling and feeling sorry for myself with nobody to talk to so spilling my feelings on here. Not sure what I'm asking - maybe someone could tell me to get a grip?!