DP is understandably pissed off with me. Basically a few months ago I joined a club. A (married) guy showed an interest in me and at first I brushed him off but as time went on I suppose I started to enjoy the attention. He kept posting things on my facebook and sending me messages. DP was annoyed and told me to block him and I kept saying I would but secretly, I enjoyed it.
The stupid thing is I never had any attraction to this guy, never intended to take things any further, felt sorry for his wife, felt guilty about DP - but still never did anything to stop it.
It came to a head when he asked me to go around to his house as his wife was away. I would never have done it but DP saw the message and went mad (understandably). I said then I'd block him but I didn't.
Today, DP has seen a (non-flirty) message on facebook, one which I replied to. He is livid and I don't blame him. He wants to know what is going on, nothing HAS gone on but I know I have encouraged all this and I feel awful and stupid. I just enjoyed the attention and thought it was harmless, obviously it isn't.
I don't even know why I encouraged it. I suppose my confidence is shit and I often question DP's intentions towards me. He has done shitty things to me in the past too (hook up sites) but we had supposed to have made a new start.
My question is, do I continue telling him I don't understand why the guy keeps pestering me or admit that I enjoyed the attention and that's why it was never stopped when it should have been?