im feeling so low at the moment I would like it if I could talk to someone

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Im kinda in a relationship 13 years and I feel so low and have no self confidence

I need to show my children that this is not how you are treated/treat people in a relationship.
If you keep taking him back ( like I did) then your sending the message to the children yes this is fine.
Good on the nights out!!!
I think you need to feel pain to know you don't want it again and taking him back would only bring the pain again down the line.
You will be fine your life will improve and his grass won't be greener it will be full of weeds!!

I know hun been though it so many times with him. He won't change I know this now after 13 years. It took along time but with my past post natal depression. And anxiety I couldn't leave I was scared to be on my own. Im strong now through counselling. My older children have seen so much and they do not think it is acceptable they have cried with me. The younger ones I worry because my dad was a dead beat drink drugs (i did not know this till I was older) the age if 8 I stopped seeing and still ended up with a guy just like him. But I will do all I can to unsure my girls find real love when the time is right

Ensure*

Your sounding really strong!!
Be it fake for the outside world as mine is or not.
I keep thinking the best revenge for making me feel rubbish about myself is to finally be happy!