I have no one to talk to at all. My husband is my best friend and we have no family around us. For a few years sex has been few and far between. DH always tired and working and I notice that even after working away for a few days or Monday- Friday. He still wasn't interested in sex. I was patient and didn't put any pressure on. Then I discovered pornography on his phone, we spoke about and I said how I felt, upset, ignored etc and he said he would delete it so the months passed no change and still pornography on the phone but hid in a file. Still the months roll on and then I put my cards on the table and we talked everything out. We were both very upset and had a real heart to heart. He said he hadn't realised how upset it had made me and how close he had come to losing me and all the pornography would stop etc. now 3 years down the line and we are still very close and affectionate but he has started to suffer with ED so again no sex. He goes to bed at 9.30 everynight as he is falling asleep on the settee and I stay up until around midnight. I find it upsetting lying next to him. My feelings or desire has never changed. I had just resigned myself to the fact we would not have sex again. I'm 42 amd he is 39. The thought devestates me but I cannot imagine my life with out him. I went away for the night on Friday with my daughters leaving him home with our son. And Sunday I discovered the history for Friday night on our shared laptop was porn site, porn down loads and live web cams. I'm destroyed. In total this has been going on around 6 years. i don't think I have the strength to leave but feel so alone and betrayed. I dread telling anyone. I don't know what to do. The loneliness is crippling. I cannot think straight.