I'm behaving like a twat

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I have NC.

I'm being snappy and mean to my boyfriend. It's been happening for a couple of months now.
I don't know why and I don't like what I'm doing, but I seem unable to stop myself.

I can't justify my behaviour and don't understand it. I'd like to understand it and I'd like to stop doing it.

I don't really know what else to say.

Thanks for your response LH.
Forgot to mention she has had some strange periods too recently, like (sorry if TMI) very heavy, hardly at all, start/stop/start, lasting 9 days, etc.
Will consider a GP visit :)

I saw my GP this morning.
When I woke up today, I felt like I was dreading the day ahead. I read some more of the posts here and decided to make an appointment.
My GP spent quite a lot of time with me, asking lots of questions and asked if I feel depressed. I said I don't, I'm not crying at all, I don't feel particularly sad, I just feel blah and flat.
She gave me a questionnaire to complete and the result is that I scored as having 'Severe Depression'.
I left the doctor's, got in my car and burst out crying.
I've been prescribed ADs, will start taking them in the morning. Apparently it may take up to 6 weeks for them to start working.
I'll move over to the Mental Health board if I need more support - I feel I may. I feel absolutely knocked for six by this diagnosis.

Good luck, been there done that. Don't just take the tablets, try and go out for walks when it's nice, get a bit of sunlight. Do some exercise if you can. It's a sneaky thing depression, and sometimes you don't recognise it until you're out the other side.

Don't be afraid to get a second opinion. "Weepiness" is a classic marker for hormone problems as well (according to MrsLH).

Don't worry OP - its amazingly common. When I was depressed I felt apathetic, irritable and as if i was living under a heavy duvet of listlessness. Medication in conjunction with counselling really helped me - also consider vit D supplements and gentle exercise - a pedometer can really help you to feel like you're achieving a target!

chim will definitely make an effort to get some more exercise, I've been so lethargic lately and it's definitely not helping.

Sunshine, yes, that's it exactly."apathetic, irritable, listless".
I had no idea that depression could be like that, I thought it was about immense sadness and dark thoughts. Although I have had some fairly dark thoughts which isn't like me at all. I'll definitely get some vitamin D - I've had hardly any fresh air for months, let alone sunshine!

Lurking, I actually haven't felt weepy at all. When I cried in my car earlier, I think it was just a mixture of shock at being told I'm depressed and relief that I'd been able to talk to someone about it. The last few months have been horrible.