Ex and I split up three weeks ago.
This happened a few days after my grandmother had died and my business suffered an accident. Last week I got nasty food poisoning and then was made redundant (with no redundancy pay, just 2 weeks notice) because the family I work for can no longer afford a Nanny.
At the moment I feel very rejected and a bit like the world has something against me!
Despite feeling at the time like ex had left me, it actually was a joint decision - mainly driven by me.
Despite this, I seem to be the one hurting the most and he seems fine.
We were together for almost 5 years and he was always the most loving one, to the point of being smothering. Now, he seems distant and cool with me and seems to be carrying on with life quite merrily.
He did get the softer end of the stick as he is keeping the house, the dog and his life situation has barely changed at all. I used to work away a lot so it probably doesn't even feel that different.
I, however, have had to find a new place to live, don't have my pets or a lot of my stuff (I'm having to collect it in drips and drabs), no longer have two of my main sources of support (ex and my grandma) plus am now in a crap financial situation until the insurance (fingers crossed) pays out for my business and then ex's parents buy out my share of the house.
I also have to find a new job, none available anywhere near my previous paygrade.
I don't have that many friends (though have got a lot of support here) and I wake up everyday having dreamt I was in my old life, feeling cripplingly lonely. I want to go back to ex, even though I ended it and I know its not right, and it pains me to know he probably wouldn't get back anyway.
Sorry for the big moany rant, it feels better to get it out and my family are probably sick of me now.