Anger after rape?

[MsPunky]

It was a few years ago. I've since reported ex to police and I'm awaiting a decision from cps as to wether the case will go to court.

I'm learning to live my life again. I'm dealing with the flash backs, I'm having counselling too.

But the anger is consuming me. I feel seriously like I want to harm him. I thinking I'm ending up misdirecting it at the people around me. I just don't have any outlet for this intense anger I feel. I want to swear and scream.

I'm sorry that you're struggling. You sound like you have done and are doing all the right things. So often fear prevents victims from making a report and I wonder if, having got past the fear and having found the courage to go for a prosecution, the anger you're feeling is that you want justice.... but now rather than when the CPS decides? An expression of strength and confidence.

If you're concerned, can you contact your counsellor?

Anger sounds like a perfectly normal and justified reaction. If you can't get hold of your counsellor could you call Rape Crisis? I'm sure they would be able to help you deal with these intense feelings. Perhaps some kind of exercise would help you release the anger in a healthy way? Perhaps running or something like kickboxing?