Ill keep this as brief as i can. I have had to name change due to a recent experience so will not go into too much detail for annonymitysake. I recently split with my STBH. I ended the relationship as i felt i was going crazy. We were together a year and a half and we had real highs and lows. I really loved him, but that my feelings eroded with his behaviour. We split two weeks ago. I have been ok, or so i thought until today. He has barraged me with calls, emails, texts and sent cards and flowers to my home. Today i had had enough and i emailed him back to tell him to stop, that its over. He then did the exact same thing that led to the split. He brought up things he had said and done and said he didnt mean to say that, he didnt think when he said this. This was a real brick wall for me because through the relationship there were 2 points that i really couldnt deal with and we talked about what was wrong. He would agree it was wrong apologise and say it would be rectified. A couple of weeks later, the same thing would happen, with the same conversation, the same proposed resolution. i would talk to him calmly, but after the 4th time, i was shouting. next time, iwas crying. Next time, i briefly put him out and so on and so on. I felt like i was going mad. He,d never shout, just keep the same monotonous tone. Lots of other things happened where he backed down on our life plans as a couple telling me what was best for me. I feel like i,ve wasted a year and a half out my life. Today, after replying to him, i just broke down and i have cried and cried all day. He sees himself as mister nice guy and has made me feel as though i,m the mental one. He has actually repeatedly said "i,m a nice guy!" I know i,ll get through this, just cannot stop crying in anger and frustration that he is trying to make me doubt myself.