Massive communication issues have plagued our relationship for the past year. We argue every day and have started to view I'm in a very dim light and he is angry at me for thinking he's a narcissistic womanising so and so. We have two small childrens and being at home while he works away has really been hard on me. Some days is like to pack up and leave but then I tell myself the infant years are the hardest and to bit the bullet. We are not friends anymore and there is little companionship.
I've recently started daydreaming about my ex and wondered what that would have been like. I disclosed all sordid details to him the other day about how I'm feeling and I don't know whether this crossed a line. We didn't break up for any other reason other than it was a relationship which turned into a long distance one. This was many years ago.
I've tried to work on our relationship but he feels I'm always in a attack mode so he shuts down and only talks about practical hints these days.
I feel like I'm going out of my mind with resentment and frustration at not being able to work past this.
Anyone else struggled in this way? Am I being disrespectful by talking to ex? Ex and I have remained good friends and we do chat about our lives and relationships but this time I feel in a way it's been a reeling to get things off my chest as I've no one else to talk to in RL.
Thanks