6 weeks since he, the ex partner of 4 yrs caused damage in mine and my ds home when we were out.. Haven't seen him since. I'm getting by and much better than I was but at times funding it hard and like our whole relationship was a dream, didn't happen.. I need encouragement to keep going, keep telling myself it's over, I don't talk about it much as don't get opportunity.. He wasn't for me, he became abusive but I miss him, the way we were when we first met.. I'm 38, would love another child and don't want to be alone forever. But I'm finding it hard, moved on from exh and here I am again.. Just need strength..