Help and advice needed

[Blackout234]

hey all its my first post in relationships,if any of you use AIBU you probably know what has gone on.
my Partner (At the time, he is now ex) punched me in the throat so hard i not only couldn't breathe, I hit the door behind and the doorhandle jammed into my side so hard i cracked a rib. breathing is still agony(This took place about a week ago) and i still have a purple bruise on my throat. Ex has been reported to the police, arrested and bailed pending trial. I'm extremely hurt (not only physically) and i'm going through "Normal" breakup feelings but worse, plus hormones as I am 24 weeks pregnant at the minute. My heads a mess.
List of emotions I feel often.
anger
sadness
hate
yearning
love
betrayal
pain.
one after the other, all at the same time different combinations. I cry at least 5 times a day, i'm slowly getting a bit better, I'm contacting relevant authorities (Womens aid, social services, midwife) to let them know what has happened and the continuing aftermath, I've spoken to social services so I can have their continued input if needed at the trial and in future if he ever goes for visitation (Which i will fight until the day I die). I know what to do for my unborn daughter and i will do it for the best of my ability but i don't know what to do with myself now :( I rarely go out (No friends where i'm living) My phone is broken so can't ring anyone unless i use the landline and run up a huge bill. I'm just sat around moping all day and night barely getting out of bed, i'm not eating properly because im never hungry, i havent eaten anything at all yet today and all i had yesterday was a cheese toastie. I'm just a depressed mess :( Help

I'm sorry you've had such a traumatic experience. No wonder you are having problems. I'm so pleased he's been arrested and you've done all the right things calling social services etc. I think what you need now is medical attention and quite urgently. I hesitate to diagnose something on the strength of a story but surviving a brutal attack - once the adrenalin has worn off - can leave people with post-traumatic stress, depression, and all kinds of other after-effects. Please call your GP, tell them that you are really struggling and ask for some intervention.

Sorry to hear what you going through Hun sending you hugs xx

Thank you missy x
cogito- Its ok, I've had medical attention for the physical things (Bruising on my throat, cracked ribs, baby checked etc) but none for the mental, i hadn't thought of that, will go to my gp in the morning (They offer a walk in hour from 9-10 every day) and ask about counselling. everything just seems so hard, havent been able to eat anything my mum went to morrisons earlier to get me a mini tray of vegetarian sushi (Im vegetarian so don't eat fish) and I could barely eat that, its like 4 tiny pieces of sushi and My stomach hurt afterward (Felt like i'd eaten a 50 course meal)x

Have the police offered you any kind of victim support? I hope the doctor can suggest something. In the meantime, if you can't face eating, can you tolerate fluids? Complan? Or something easily digested like scrambled egg

How are you feeling today Hun any better? Xx

no i feel crappy, couldn't sleep until about 8 this morning and only woke an hour ago, woke up crying :( x

Have you got someone with you? Did you get the doctor's appointment?

Yes I was going to mention victim support too. They usually contact you straight away when police are involved.

So sorry to hear what has happened - and glad to hear that you are safe. Others will be along with wise words of wisdom and support, but in the meantime, practically, can you afford a new (preowned?) phone, or even a cheaper contract phone so that you can stay in contact with friends, whilst your other one is being mended. Contact with friends can be a lifeline at times like these.

Re eating, try protein drinks, if your mum can pick you a few up, and also a few mouthfuls of scrambled eggs. They are the gentlest things to digest and will give you and your baby some energy. Toast and honey sounds tough but is also very easy to swallow, and gives good energy even from a few mouthfuls.

What a dreadful thing to have gone through. I had a horrible few months last year, and found that the only thing that helped initially was just talking about it. I note what you've said about your phone and lack of friends nearby, but you also mention your mum coming round. Can you talk it all through with her ?

It sounds a bit cheesy but I also wrote down some of my feelings when I felt I just wanted to scream with frustration. I also allowed myself the luxury of having a good old sweary rant when nobody else was around!!

I think Cogito's advice is spot on (as ever), did you manage to see your GP?

No I didn't get to my GP as i'd had so little sleep I fell off and couldn't get up until about 2-3oclock :(

Blackout, I'm so sorry this has happened to you.

If you are unable to get to the GP, ask for a call out. I've been in a similar place to where you are. I was 34 weeks and had two under five. I wrote loads in that time. Some of it (poetry) was published afterwards! I was given PTSD as a result of it all and writing became my outlet. Is there anything creative you could use to your advantage?

You aren't alone in how you feel but you do need support. As well as the gp and services you are already in touch with, are you in touch with your local sure start centre? Quite often they have family support workers who might be able to offer support and advice. You should also have a DV worker. Mine was accessed via women's aid and she was fantastic.

When I couldn't sleep and couldn't eat, grapes were about the only thing which tempted me! Sounds daft and a cliché but it was something to pick at.

Things will get better. The first thing is to find a way to sleep and eat, even if only a tiny amount little and often. My beautiful dd stopped growing as rapidly as she should in utero. Fight for your little one even if you feel unable to fight for yourself right now x

Hope you've managed to get some sleep op, are you feeling any better ?