I have not posted on here for such a long time but in need of reassurance right now. Long story short i gave my abusive boyfriend another chance end of last year, after at least 12months of abuse in which i see clearly now, Physically a few times but mostly name calling and house rules and generally making me feel worthless, i did give him a chance though many times but lately i have realised i cannot get any feeling back for this man i have been with him a number of years but i took the massive step middle of last year to move out of the home as he went too far physically so with help from one friend found rented accomodation , so end of last year i gave him another chance we do not live together but he would come round or vice versa to try and see if it can work.
When i ended it before he didnt accept it and constansly text me, follow me to school where our child goes etc until i gave in and said yes to another chance. Anyway i recently experianced another ordeal in which i have totally realised i need to end this for good and never go back. Just in need of some support as i literally have about 5 friends this man got rid of all my friends a few years ago i used to have a good social life and really good friends , at the moment i only have a few who ive met through child playgroups and school parents, i am also worryed about the after affects of ending it with him again, i feel abit anxious about everyday things as hes always been there, shopping, going to appointments etc i havent done anything alone for as long as i can remember, so im entering the unknown but i know if i stay with him im going to end up trapped again.