ive been sinking over the last few days - can always tell when on here more- as well as having to deal with a controlling narcisstic STXH & OW i have just been diagnosed with breast cancer - for a while i thought this may change the interraction between DH & myself but i have come to realise that nothing will change - the only discussion he has had with me has been about the critical illness cover! - says it all really! He had the option of spending some of Xmas day with the kids here but chose to spend it with family that kids know he doesnt really like. I get my 2nd lot of results on NYE - i keep telling myself to expect nothing from him & then I wont be disappointed - i know he is with OW - i know im torturing myself- just stuck in limbo again - counsellor on xmas break - and just feel like got another year of challenges i really want to put behind me. thanks for reading