Me and the H are separated. Over a year. He said he wants to go to counselling after Xmas for us to see if we can fix whats broken. I agree. He has always been pretty thoughtless and an unreliable husband.
Anyway i asked some time ago if we were getting each other xmas gifts, or just gifts from the children. He said both!
This morning i gve him a number of items that were very specific to his interets and likes that he seemed to really like. I put a lot of time, thought and effort into choosing each one. Main one from me was engraved.
He got me anti-blemish skin care stuff. I was very 'thanks this is great!'for a bit, Then asked about whether it was from him or the children. He said both. Joint present.
First im a bit upset its a gift set, so no effort an little thought. Secondly, its for spots! Thirdly, he said gift from each other AND gift from kids.
I feel like a dont matter to anyone. My parents put £30 in an envelope. But i did get a lovely necklace from secret santa.
Im angry at myself for feeling upset. Im an adult if i want suff i can buy it myaelf. I guess im upset as its pbviously so thoughtless and a demonstration that actually he doesnt care and the talk of counselling was just to get to spend xmas eve, xmas day and boxing day as a family.
This is probably in the wrong place. I dont actually know why im posting or what i want / expect people to say. Im an ungrateful cow expecting more than i should.