I have a drinking problem... please help

[Iwantmylifeback]

I don't know where to begin. My hands are trembling as I write this, so I apologise in advance if I drip feed.

I've been drinking a lot lately; I've lost count how much.

I'm moody, depressed, suffering from panic attacks. My children deserve better than this. I'm a terrible mother, my children are so precious to me. I want to be a better mother, I need help to stop drinking. I haven't always drunk like this. I get so many compliments of how wonderful my children are. I must have done something right. To tell you the truth, I feel very lonely in life for many reasons.

Please don't judge me. I poured the left over wine in the sink. I never want to have another drop of alcohol pass my lips; I never want to walk down the booze aisle at the supermarket again. I want to make my life better, positive, brighter, especially for darling children.

Wow nosy that definitely strikes a chord with me.

Good luck to all starting out on this journey. Keep on keeping on

lol ex. I do that sometimes when 'never drinking again' seems so hard. I think to myself that I can drink again when I'm 80..... and it won't matter too much. Maybe I'll start with vodka cruisers like a teenager learning to drink.

Some areas you can self refer for drug and alcohol counselling. Also AA meets every day and would warmly welcome you.

It's much easier to go it with help than alone. There is a certain comfort about hearing other people's story that rings a bell in your own mind.

You've made the hardest step by stopping the self deception as realising it's a problem for you that you need to address. I think they call it the "powerlessness over alcohol", the acknowledgment of which is the first step to sobriety.