I am 36 and single, I haven't dated in a while as I was busy with my masters degree for a few years and now I am working as an artist. I live quite rurally and I don't meet many new people. I am quite shy and totally not a party girl, nor even that social. I do like people but I prefer a one on one or small groups. I find that single people my age all still tend to be into going to clubs and partying and I'm not really into it, I don't even drink. I have always been a bit square, aside from my art I like yoga, reading, gardening, astronomy, jigsaw puzzles, board games, cooking, music (playing and going to concerts) so sort of in between a little old lady and a 10 year old girl.
Also and this is the big one, I can't have children or at least not without masses of intervention and even then nothing is guaranteed. I found this out in my teens and was devestated but when I really thought about it I realised that I actually didn't want a child enough to put myself though all that, so I made the choice not to. My first serious boyfriend from 17 to 33 was for the longest time happy with not having children but that all changed when his brother and friends started marrying and having children suddenly he started to talk about us having children, I did give it some serious consideration but I just couldn't and he was not happy to adopt so we split up, so he could find a mother for his children, which left me heartbroken. He is still single at present.
I would like to meet someone, around my own age but I think my appeal is rather niche. I am not glamorous, sophisitcated or beautiful but I am healthy and am often taken for much younger (my boring lifestyle has some benefits). Dating sites look too brutal and I just can't imagine anyone would want me being both barren and not cool or hot enough. My feeling is that most men my own age want either a short term partner in crime or a woman to have children with, even if they aren't sure themselves yet they still want the option of being a father in the future.
Is there any hope for me?