Please don't jump on me.
I have a om. He is amazing. I found him in January of this year after being married a year, together 7 to my husband.
My husband was my first love. We met at 16. He moved in 3 months later and I didn't really get a say. I feel like I have been stuck here since. We have two children. I should have left years ago but I had really bad pnd and needed him even though he didn't help.
he's a great dad but he shouts a lot. And swears a lot.
He works hard and pays the bills though.
We've had some awful arguments were he has broken some of my stuff.
In January I met om. He is the same age as me. We would go out on days out and for lunch. He calls me gorgeous and beautiful daily. He is my best friend.
In May I had the weekend to myself. Om toke me London for the day and the next day we went out and had lunch and just hung out. It was the best weekend iv had in years. On Monday I told my husband I wanted a divorce. He kicked off obviously. Smashed by bedroom up. I thought he was going to kill me. So I rang the police.
The police wouldn't do anything and just asked him to leave.
He kept messaging me. He went to my sister's and they messaged me telling me I'm selfish.
I let him back. He promised he would change. He was put on anti depressants and he changed for a few months. He told me to never contact om again. I couldn't :.(
Om treats me like a queen. He buys me things, sends flowers to my house and recently asked to take me and the children out for the day. He's never met the kids yet but wants to obviously this isn't going to happen.
i don't know what to do. I don't love my husband. Well i do but not in love.I Hate the thought of hurting him but he's hurt me so many times.
We rent and it's in both our names. He isn't going to leave.
What do i do?
I feel so much for om. I love being with him and he makes me feel amazing and safe and loved.