Struggling to think clearly. I have posted a few times but in myself I'm not really getting anywhere and moving forward. My exh left in 2009, ds was 18 mo. I met new partner, was in a much better place and felt ready to move forward. But I've always known he isn't quite right for me but have hung on. Intellectually we are not matched which I thought I could work with as we do have good times. But I can't commit. I can convince myself we are casual or fwb but I want more.. For me. I want someone who can bring out the best in me. We are v attracted to each other but also physically it is a little disappointing. In fact with all this many of you might think 'what are you doing?!' So what am I doing? Why can't I end it and not go back? I feel stuck and I'm unhappy and at 38 feel like I'm wasting time. I love him but can't be with him. How do I break free?