I am posting fr traffic as could do with some support due to being too embarrassed and upset to speak to RL friends and family right now. I posted on here recently regarding this matter: I am really at a loss as to what to think or feel anymore , but after much deliberation I have come to the agonising decision to end things with my partner. I am now faced to go it alone with a toddler -and soon -a newborn. I can't help feeling I am crazy for doing this, but the relationship is literally intolerable. I am far from perfect , but he is extremely immature and only getting worse. He is a good father, but as a partner is emotionally unavailable, immature, shouts and will not change things that NEED to change. We have gone back and forth with different problems and are getting nowhere. I feel like such a failure - but it is only really since this pregnancy things have become so difficult (probably due to lots of strain from life's happenings) I wouldn't have had kids by him if I would have known what he is really like. I regret not taking more time and thinking so rashly. Obviously I do not regret my babies; I just feel like everyone will judge me and deem me so irresponsible for getting pregnant again. If I would have known things were to go like this I would have thought more carefully. Hindsight is a beautiful things. I feel so alone, scared as to what the future holds- and most of all extreme guilt that my dd and soon to be son, will not have a proper family unit. The guilt is the worst, j feel like a total shame on my family too. It is the hardest thing to have to do, but I know it my gut it's right. It would be easier to stay- and put up and shut up, like I see so many doing... But I don't want that for my family. I am fed up of te hopelessness in the relationship, how he drags me down, the stress when I am pregnant - this oregnancy has been very difficult and I do not need this too. Please tell me someone else out there has done this and got by? I have a degree and plan to go into teaching - or study in midwifery, I have ambition and drive and I know I can support my babies long term- but right now all that seems so far away.