Ok, so actually I've been divorced 2 years but split in 2009 after 13 yrs together. 1 ds age 7. Had 3.5 yr "relationship" with unplanned pregnancy/ miscarriage. Turned quite abusive and exp overpowering/ obsessive and issues of his own. I've ended relationship and no contact for 2.5 weeks now. I feel traumatised by a lot of what's happened and have simply 'blanked out' and been on autopilot. Saying that I've kept up with work, looking after house, ds no major crisis. Am on ads which are helping for anxiety.
I left uni when I was younger due to anxiety and didn't finish degree. Settled down, got married. Have still managed to get graduate jobs.
I feel stuck and trapped. How do I find direction? I'm not in a job I want to do and am just becoming complacent.. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore? I felt so strong during divorce and could see a 'way out' .. I'm still in marital home, same job. Exh has bought a house with another woman, moved on.. I miss ex p even though I know it wasn't a good relationship. Where do I begin? I feel all my spare time is taken up just to 'survive'.. Anyone been here? How did you get 'out'?