Help me to feel better

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Today I have split up from P - his choice and he is starting to see someone else. We have only been together 6 months but I feel as though I have been ripped apart. I have recently lost my mother and am very tired from a work project. So I know that I am not in the best of places either. I am moving to a new job in a fortnight but will have to still see him at work for the next two weeks.
I feel like a knife is being twisted into my heart when I think of him and just want to go away and hide. Please give me some tips to get me through this and to help me manage the work situation.

Well done - sounds like you were outwardly dignified, no matter how you were feeling inside. I can't imagine how difficult that must be, to have to continue to see him regularly at work.

In some ways he made it easy because he just treated me as we normally do. I have felt the urge to text him tonight and declare undying love but have restrained myself. Once I leave my job i am going to delete his number from my phone but for now we do need to phone / text each other whilst at work - difficult to explain but this is a genuine situation not just an excuse and I do only do it when it is urgent and I can not speak to him by any other means.

Anyway I have just about got myself through another day although that also panics me because it is another day closer to me not seeing him again.

Thank you for holding my hand through this Charlotte .

I hate how this emotion can just take over me and cause me physical pain in my heart and chest. How do I stop myself thinking of him in bed with new GF? I do so well and most of the time it doesn't seem real but then it just hits me like a bus and completely floors me. Why can't he love me?