Or maybe it was because she didn't want to be so far away from her family (whom she hardly sees) because of my Dad and his moods. She might have felt that being closer to them meant she had somewhere to go if the worst happened and she split with my Dad .No D.V etc he just a moody, unreasonable cunt at times.
How does one ever get over the feeling of being unwanted by their Mother?
I guess when us unwanted have children of our own we get something back from them, a security, love, validation for who e are and show them a different way of parenting s we experienced ourselves.
Yes, i have don that with my own Son but as he has no speech, blind and sleep all the time or he upstairs in bed listening to music i miss out on that.
Fact is i am very lonely and and i find it hard to cry. I need a huge howl, sad music, film doesn't do it for me.
My cleaner was here the other ay. Such a beautiful soul he has. Made me have tar in front of her and then she went on to eplain how her Step Mother had broken her arm and then leg when she was a child and had six long hospital stays because of the violence.
She has a loving boyfriend.
I am sick of having nobody and feeling unwanted.
It is hard to snap out of stuck in this house all the fucking time nd i cannot afford a sitter at 14 pounds per hour.
Social services are shyte.
I haven't head from my friend this week much and i feel she is giving me the cold shoulder, i feel so hurt and unwanted. She text me and said she is unwell just now, but i feel there is more to it as she was at the cinema last night and out every night this week. She isn't telling me the truth my gut instinct tells me
I;m worried..