So over the past 3 weeks or so I've stumbled across a number of dodgy things that DP was doing behind my back such as signing up to chat/dating sites and iphone apps.
After confronting him the first time he denied it all and then admitted that he had done it but said it was a one off/he was drunk/it was a moment of madness which he deleted after straight away etc.
We had a massive argument over it in which he more or less said I was over-reacting as these things were literally downloaded and then deleted more or less straight away. He almost made out that I was being unreasonable to make a massive issue out of it.
I let it go.
About a week later I find evidence that he is STILL actively using the chat app to speak to other women. I confront him and expect more lies but to my surprise he admits it straight away, admitted that he carried on using the app after we had the huge row and that he didn't know why and couldn't explain it.
He later went on to say that he wondered if deep down, he wanted to split up but wanted me to be the one to finish it.
In the heat of anger I told him I'd make it easy for him and finish it there and then. He showed a mix reaction - firstly saying "ok if that's what you want, I don't really want to split up but I understand why you'd want to and I can't change how you feel .... " (yeah don't try too hard ... :-( )
He later changed this to say that he really didn't want to break up, he was gutted that he'd upset me and he'd prove to me that he loved me and wanted me etc and he'd stop pratting around on chat sites.
We've kind of drifted on for a few days but I can't help thinking about when he said he wondered if he really wanted to break up so was doing stuff to ruin the relationship ... you wouldn't say this unless it was the truth would you?
So why then did he change his mind and make a point of trying to convince me not to finish it??
Really, does he want me to be the one to finish it?