I'm having a torrid time emotionally and could do with some objective opinions please
I am late 40s, lesbian, single. I've recently wondered if I have an attachment disorder. I look at my relationship history and its not great. 5 years is my longest, recently (last 8years) however most have lasted less than a year. my last relationship ended august- my decision because I didn't feel she could give me the attention/priority I wanted. there were other issues- there always are- but I wonder if I'm jumping ship too quickly generally, and that nothing will ever be good enough emotionally for me. That is a scary thought.
I have friends, a job, house etc. so other parts of my life work well. just not the part I really crave success in. I feel a complete utter failure, everyone else seems able to sustain a loving relationship except me. ok not everyone, but most people
I'm having therapy and will raise this at he next session- we've not talked about attachment, just general stuff about esteem, childhood etc. but when I looked at attachment stuff recently it felt like a penny dropped/LBM. or am I clutching at straws?
anyone else thought about this? am I doomed?