Struggling to see the point

[whatisforteamum]

First let me apologize to anyone with real problems.As the title suggests i am struggling at the moment.Previously i was happy enough to work,get the dcs to school,do the chores the pop out shopping before the week started again.Now with recent events with Dh doing his own thing (he says he is comfortable)Dad going into hospital this week as his cancer that is incurable has spread.Mum got the ok on her cancer check to go back in 6 months.I cant decide if DH has changed since his heart attack,or if its me finding life a relentless chore.
Part of me knows getting out and making friends would help but i feel to low/ drained and lacking in confidence to get the kick up the bum required.
Dad brought me flowers for my birthday this week (amazing he is still here) then went on to criticize me for not going anywhere nice !!
I was referred for councelling in the summer but it was decided i was not really that depressed, more that i had alot going on.Thanks for reading i am dreading another hard winter.

If I were you I would go back to your GP. I don't think a counsellor can accurately diagnose depression, there are many seriously stressful events in your life, and I think you need to tell someone that you're not coping.

Thanks cog..it was the GP who reffered me to Healthy minds.They decided i was moderately depressed then slightly depressed.DD and i got DH to sit at the table and talk."hrs later he decided my parents could live longer and he so why try to have fun and keep afloat as mum was given a yr and had 7.Also he does his own thing and he decided this when he was ill and was doing a mocking laughing at DD and i.We agreed his personality has changed.
Next stop GP this week and DD starts her first job.

update...i Emailed the samaritans after a tough working week.
Dad was going into hosp for a biopsy to see if his cancer has spread or he has 2 types of cancer.Dh has told me he wont listen to any talk about my work or colleagues i told him one poor girl had a bad oil burn and had to go sick.Also the place got flooded .Difficult times.
I am also not to mention parents illnesses as they have lived longer than predicted so how do i know when they will die !! His relative jumped on social media and pointed out he is not supportive as i said life was for living 28yrs ago when i met him and his mum had died ten yrs before i met him.
Therefore he is right not to be supportive now WTF.