just getting stuff of my chest

[stupidlittlegirl]

When i was 14/15 i met a man off the internet. We went for a walk in the woods. He took photographs of me naked and semi naked and we also has sex. Twice i think.
We also then went to his car where his girlfriend was. She had sex with me on the back seat whilst he watched.

This was something i had more or less forgotten about. But it had been playing on my mind more. Thinking about the pictures of me. Where are they now? Etc.

I can not believe what a stupid girl i was. Jesus. What the hell was i thinking? I could have been bloody murdered!

Not sure why im posting. I suppose just to get it off my chest!

I just had a look online. It is called faceparty. I wonder if they would be able to look back at when i had a profile on there? They would find him then. Is that something the police or IT Bods could do?

I dont know what i would do in your situation. Knowing where he lived etc would make it all too real for me. I would like to think i would report him, because as others have said it probably wasn't just us.

I think one thing's for certain now, which is that the police are at last taking these complaints seriously. Icantthinkofanamerightnow, depending on how long ago it was, I think it would be really worthwhile going to the police about that guy, to see whether he's alive - if he's still active in his 50s, it's very unlikely that he's stopped.

OP, I think Rape Crisis would be the best place, as others have said. As you talk to them you might find you remember more - be prepared for that as it might be upsetting for you.

I'm so sorry for all of you who were treated badly by adults. It's really awful to think of you going through that.

How long ago was it, OP? Just wondering how long companies like that keep their data.

Between 9 and 11 years ago. Depending on how old i actually was. I think i was 14/15 but as i said i could have been 13 or up to 16. Although i really dont think i was that old because i remember him commenting on how lovely and young i was.

imperial it was 20 years ago

OP, can you remember when you first found that site? Did you keep the same username the whole time or did you change a lot?

Ugh at "lovely and young."

Icantthinkofanamerightnow - he will still be alive. Do you think you'll feel better if you report it?

I know i was at school- because it was the school computer i used to set up and email and account. My school friend showed me it? Otherwise id have no idea. But excatly when i dont know. I think i kept the same user name- would not have occurred to change it.

I wonder if you were to think about this, you'd remember. Do you remember taking your GCSE exams? You would have been on the school computers then and I imagine you were on that site. Can you remember being a bit younger - were you on then? Think of the teachers you had when you were thirteen, before you took your options. Was there a subject you dropped then? Can you remember being in the computer room and having to leave to go to that class?

None of that rings any bells. I think i must have been older then 13. I lost my virginity at 14, and he was after that. But the friend that introduced me to that website was not someone i routinely hung around with. I know i was friends with her for yr 7 and 8, but the last 2/3yrs of school i didn't. So that doesnt seem to make much sense.

It all feels so strange in my head. Time doesnt seem to have proper sequence. Why is it so hard for me to remember anything? - not even things related to this but generally anything. I dont seem to be able to slot things in the order they happen.

It seems unlikely for me to have had a profile on this website for years. Surely i would remember it more if that was the case. I was under the impression i was on the site a few weeks before i met him. But that would mean i was a lot younger. 11-13. I dont think thats right. I am sure my first time was with my boyfriend at 14. But it doesn't seem to add up the other way round either.