Feeling v.sad and unloved today. 22 yrs married two school age ds. Dh wanted to leave a few yrs ago - he fell in love (not reciprocal as it turned out and just an emotional affair he said). Two days of manic checking of internet, secret email addresses revealed the extent of his interest in and involvement with other women - coffee dates, lunches, dinners, most of which I was oblivious to or believed were wider after work activities. All my fault apparently as I was neglectful, too focussed on DS, dont have the same interests and, bearing in mind I work full time, the house was not tidy (you guessed it l do 90% of the houseworko, garden, stuff for house and kids). Also I can't forgive his playing away on social media - definitely talking online to some young slut and on affairs websites - but apparently,
and I know said in the heat of the moment, I am a fucking whore. He won't go, overcompensates with DS a lot but he offers me nothing. I carry this sadness/loss with me and think he does too but does not want to leave for his reasons DS, home comforts, no soft landing - how can I move forward without hurting DS and face the future on my own????
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