Anyone there ?

[ShouldISellTheHouse]

Been ill for a whole week. Infection then stomach bug - was up vomiting all last night. Been on loads of meds and haven't taken my antidepressants last 2 days due to chance of just vomiting them back. Anyway, I'm sure that's all the whys - but I came to bed with the kids at 9 and just woke. I feel I've spent the full 3 hours sleep trapped in a nightmare about ex leaving us -6onths ago. It was all so vivid, the ow, his hatred of me, my feelings of insignificance and worthlessness, my having to pack up my stuff and leave this weird house we were in which was something to do with ow.
Anyway I've woken feeling really really strange. Just wanted someone to listen really

sounds utterly pants OP
Ex DP sounds like an utter arse,
Do you still have to have contact with him ??

Thank you for being here lost. Yes sadly I have virtually daily contact with him as he sees the boys / helps with school run etc. he was full of himself earlier this week as due to me being really ill he was letting himself in with key and sorting out kids - he was singing and making a show of being happy - cos he'd got his feet back under the table
In my dream I begged him to come home and he kissed me before rejecting me again. This has made me feel really odd.

Do you have coffee and chocolate available? Maybe not the coffee, actually. Hot chocolate? Horlicks? Nightmare recovery kit!

I'm sure being ill and the interruption to your meds have triggered your mind into making a hideous dream for you to not-enjoy ... hopefully you will relax and sleep again soon

Thanks tipsy - I have a 3yo asleep on my leg so getting up is difficult. Maybe I should though, to break the spell?

Yes, moving around changes mental energy. You might get away with wriggling leg from under youngster without being noticed ....

Gosh.

You've been ill after a really horrible upsetting time.

I'm not surprised you're having bad dreams. You're still processing it all. It is a lot to get through.

I do know how it is to feel peculiar after vivid dreams. Especially in day time sleeps.

I always think dreams are helpful. There is no specific message per se. I think of them as cats eyes in the road. A dim light that our minds are trying to use.

I've always taken note of my dreams. Some have been disturbing and upsetting but have always helped me think things through.

Let your ex sing as if his feet are under the table. They are not and you are only ill for a bit. When you are we he can go away again!

I agree winkywinkola - I still write dreams down if I get a vivid one.

I've just booked a gp appointment - I'm going to ask for counselling. I need to sort myself out. Thank you everyone - it really helps not to feel alone.
winky or anyone else - would you indulge me in a bit of dream analysis - what messages should I be taking?

Depends which ADs you're taking, but some can suppress dreams, so when you stop taking them you have really vivid dreams. I didn't know that and some of my dreams were quite disturbing, but it's most likely the break in meds causing them. I'm generally up for a bit of dream analysis, but be careful not to read too much into this. Hope you're feeling better

cat you are right, I don't normally dream. I'm on sertraline.