I did my first freedom programme this week.
Every single characteristic of the dominator was my exp.
Its been 9months since I left thinking it was all in my head and I imagined it. But I never imagined it. It was real. I thought I was a fraud being in a refuge as he kept saying "I never abused her, she's making it up"
I really thought I imagined it.
He didn't just "only" push me downstairs or threaten me with a knife.
Every single little thing he did was all for control. From the way he stood to the emotional abuse he caused, every single thing I thought was showing he cared was him getting me where he wanted me.
It was horrible hearing about the dominator. He was abusive.
The only thing he never matched was the "Mr good guy"
I thought it was going to be a waste of time doing freedom programme. I only just started it and realising a lot. We have only just touched each dominator so ill probably feel more as the time goes on.
I don't know why im making this post. Its all just hit me. I was being abused. My babies were also being abused.