Good evening all
I have lurked and read so many threads, where so many thoughts and experiences have rung true.
I am here, surviving, after a 10 year marriage, with my decree Nisi pronounced, feeling a little lost yet relieved and hopeful all at once.
My story is a sadly familiar one - I fell in love, completely, and I forgave and gave chances, repeatedly. Until this year, when I chose not to feel saddened or fearful any more.
I was hit, once, years ago, and have been hurt with words, lies and anger many times.
So now it is me and my 10 year old DD, a decree nisi and a sense of trepidation about what comes next.
It was the 'Dear STBXH' thread that prompted me to come out of hiding, to mark my place I guess. I think I would write 'To the man I once loved with all my heart', it has been broken but I am slowly beginning to come back to life and mend; my heart has started to beat again, albeit to a different rhythm.
So, if I may, I will share my story and experiences, hopes, utter exasperation and occasional sobs on here. Although I have reached a landmark point in this process, it still feels like there is a very long way still to go, and the raw feelings that have defined times in my marriage feel a little less ragged, and allow words to come a little more freely. It feels good to start to move on.