Been married for 26 years, tired, exhausted, but I think ready to end.
So many issues, I am a victim of sexual abuse, from more than one person, first person I told him about, he hit me and said why did I do it? i should have left then I know that now.
I never told him anymore, but my sister did, another torrent of abuse! rejection and anger towards me.
Why,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, because he loves me apparently! cant bear the thought of me being hurt, so gets angry.
Masses of issues, I will give you a few
I'm too fat to have sex with (on my birthday, present i've never forgotten)
I sent a "sexy" text, apparently sex abuse victims dont do that? (give me the script and I will act it out then...not)
Loads of other stuff along the same line, but tonight massive argument and he physically assaulted me, denied it, blamed me and worse than that he told me DS2 hated me.....I thought me and DS2 had a great relationship, myself and DS1 have a dreadful relationship,but so does he with him too. but that hurt, ds2 and I are close.
I am bruised and I am hurt, which he is saying I am making up. Previously told me I am at fault from physical abuse as I bruise easily, so it doesn't really count????
I will go tomorrow. I am financially able to, emotionally ready now, but still damn scared.
Please hold my hand, my bruised neck, my sore back and everything else that hurts. I never fought back, I just kept saying, please stop you are hurting me.
Thank you xx