strange question i know. i dont know how to start this but please help!!!i lost my husband 1yr wed just gone and i dont want no-one else but i think your body must realise that you can never have him back.my dd's went for a drive with a friend of theres and his brother(step)and they brought them both back here oohhhmg he is gorgeous!!!.he comes round a lot although he does have a girlfriend i dont think she is right for him not because i fancy him but she is misserable and quite big and he is dark and slim and very bubbly and outgoing,i know they say its not what you see but what is inside but she has nothing inside,he can get better!! i dont know what to do as i am nothing to look at as i am quite big also and i know he wont like me in that way,we are very close and can talk about anything,he took me all the way down to milton keynes on friday and leeds on the friday before to see robbie,i have dropped hints that i like him but i think he just thinks i am being nice,he is also far to young for me to but he acts a lot older he is 23 i am 35 please give me any advice and ask any questions to help me.i know this may seem strange but my head is not here at all.at the moment he is living accross the road with his parents but he has just got a house on his own and i am affraid i will not see him as much and i will feel embarassed going down to visit,also this keeps playing on my mind everytime his girlfriend rings him he puts it on loudspeak so i can hear the conversation.i hope you understand this