Really Struggling

[AlmostMrs]

I want to make a post here for a bit of clever words of wisdom but don't know where to begin really.

I keep typing and deleting trying to work out which words are relevant, I just feel alone and desperate.

I just got such a bad shock / broken heart that I don't really know how to cope much longer. Feeling like I have endured it for so long I can't face another day or

Basically I suppose my fiancé broke off our engagement because he realised I was a rebound.

I don't really know what else to say but there was so much that happened. I feel like my life is just a total waste.

It takes time to adjust to the reality. There are no short cuts. I was in a relationship for 12 years with someone who definitely had a lot wrong with him but who I never had pegged as being the unfaithful type. Then one week we were talking about ttc and the next week he told me he'd been unhappy for a long time and he was off. Turned out eventually that he had hooked back up with a girlfriend he'd had 12 years earlier!

So I've done the 'out of the blue bombshell', I understand the shock, and I know how long it took me to adjust. It is truly horrible, no getting away from it. But the answers you get from him are not going to make it any less horrible, I'm sorry.

You have to put all your energy into your new life, making the most of the good days and coping with the bad days best you can. The shock fades, the sadness lingers, there are no short-cuts

what's ttc Cogito?

Yes, 'ttc' was that he was dead keen to start trying to conceive There was even an occasion shortly after he'd left for the OW when he said 'if you are pregnant, I'll do the right thing and come back' which, in my shocked state & with my self-esteem on the bones of its arse, I thought was a generous offer. Looking back of course, I realise that not having the arrogant twatbadger's ugly spawn was the best thing I ever did...

You'll reach a similar realisation one day but it's some distance off yet.

Sorry that happened to you. I'm just in a real mess here. Haven't gone to work.

Do you have a friend or family member that can come and be with you? Sometimes work is actually a good way to distract you.

I just feel like being alone today, but will sort myself out in a few days. I just can't really believe it all

Take care then.