Bad girlfriend

[Smurfgirl]

I have been at my parents since thursday and I am due to go home tomorrow but I feel very mixed up about going. I don't have to be anywhere until Monday btw am on holiday at the moment.

I feel so safe at my parents, its clean and tidy and well, nice. My house despite my best efforts always looks so grubby round the edges and because I am so anal it makes me feel so uncomfortable all the time I am always a bit on edge. My house is also infested with big scary spiders, I am TERRIFED of spiders which I know is silly but again it means I am always on edge. Things like going to the toilet in the night have become this huge chore because I am so anxious about seeing a spider.

And here its so peaceful and calm, I get to chill with my cats all day. At home I am constantly thinking of what needs doing in my eternally messy house.

And then there is DF who i love to pieces and I do miss a lot, but at the same time here I am left alone all the time. No pestering for mid afternoon sex etc, I am very very independent and he is very touchy feely and it really bugs me sometimes like he will cuddle me and I really need the loo and I know he is doing it because he loves me but I feel restricted and I just want a wee!! God I sound so heartless don't I? I do love our cuddles but I am just not as touchy feely as him, here I am at my own pace.

But I miss DF a lot, actually I think I want Jon here, in my parents safe warm house. I feel horrid for feeling like this, I mean, not wanting to go home because of spiders and too many cuddles - how silly and cruel

x

nah, you just want to be a little girl
i dont know the whole scenario, but if it feels safe to eb with your parents right now, then just stay. until you need to leave.
i once stayed with my parents for three and a half ,onths.

Hello

Maybe you just need a bit of 'you' time and a chance to relax and think of you for a little while. Even though you love DF you are still an individual and need some space sometimes. And i think youve had a rough time recently (apologies if ive got the wrong person) so maybe you need to be looked after a little bit xxxx

sorry to be brutal but if you feel like this just a few months after getting engaged I not sure it's a good sign....

You're saying "No pestering for mid afternoon sex etc, I am very very independent and he is very touchy feely and it really bugs me sometimes like he will cuddle me" so earlier in the relationship.....Are you really sure he's the "one"????

hi smirfgirl, i love my dp more than anything but i love being at my mom and dads house to espessialy when dp is their with me, the reasons i love it is its where i grew up the family home,its so clean and tidy no caos at all, they really help me with ds (ASD) i feel looked after their like i did when i was a little girl, i think its only natural to feel like it

Total ooposite here...whenever I was back at home I could never wait to get back to my own place.

Still like it now, how ever many yrs later....

Me too LTH, I like my Mum's house (it's not the one I grew up in) but I am always hugely glad to be back home. Have been that way since I left home at 16.

I spoke to him for ages last night on the phone and I do actually feel better today and I am going home this afternoon.

I have been very bored recently - not at uni and no mates around and broke so I think part of it is that the change of scenery has made me feel better!

LTH - that made me sound horrid didn;t it? I do like having cuddles with him, and afternoon sex its just he sometimes doesn't know when he has gone too far in pestering me!